the eyes of the beholder

I feel like an emotional rollercoaster sometimes. Ugh, how obnoxious! Sometimes i'm ok with where I am in life. Sometimes i'm not ok with it. Overall I would like to say that I am quite content. I have 2 great jobs I love, i'm going to school for something I love, it's been a quiet/peaceful summer, I am perfectly fine without being married and having kids, I have some amazing friends. However, although I am working 2 jobs I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water, I still have a loooong time until I graduate, the quietness and peacefulness of the summer has begun to turn into boredom, I feel like the rest of the world my age is married making me feel like i'm out of the circle and hard to make friends my age without becoming the awkward 3rd of 5th wheel, although my friends are amazing most of them don't live near me or are moving even farther away in the way too near future (virginia is only 20 hours away. not bad, right?)

I've really begun to see a more in depth view of how beauty really is in the eye of the beholder. I could sit and throw a pity party every other night about how my life stinks, i could run from the things I don't want to face, or I can look life straight on and say bring on the beauty.

God is the Jehovah Jireh, God has a plan for my life, although this plan isn't like the rest of the world it's unique and that's alright (i often taking a different route than everyone else), and if I can't be ok with myself then how am i supposed to be ok with someone else. Sometimes I think it would be easier to revert to my old ways and choose to run and throw a pity party, but then it's almost as if God knocks me upside my head and says "really? do you remember what happened last time you did this?"

Moral of the story:
In the long run it's better to stop and smell the roses and realize the true beauty in everything!